May 17, 2016
Drumroll please.....DAY 100!!!!
Because I am a secret quitter I have to celebrate here as nobody in real life knows to throw me a party! hahaha!
I am so excited to have made it this far! I never thought I could do it...but I did! I feel like there should be cake and fireworks!
But, I know that I am still not "safe" with a 100 sober days under my belt. I am not fooling myself.
I heard this quote on The Bubble Hour that resonated with me...it helps to keep me going:
"I am only one drink away from ground zero."
It is so true. One drink would wipe away my success..because one drink would NEVER be enough for me.
It is interesting, because I can now think that I will never drink again (most of the time anyway!). I still like to count days. I like to "see" my success. But, I try to picture myself in the future as a sober person. (A skinny sober person). I hate to rush my life, but I just want to get this whole drinking/quitting thing over with already! (hmmm....do you think that I should work on patience? After all, it is a virtue.)
I want to get through all of the "firsts." (Someone please remind me of this when I am complaining as I am scared for my first sober summer!)
I want to go one day without even thinking about a drink (I hope that does not require me to be in a comatose state!)
I want to be able to learn how to deal with my feelings...properly (is there really such a thing? I am going to find out!)
I still have to lose that dang 20 lbs. 100 days and NADA! The scale hasn't budged. But somehow, my jeans fit me better?
I want to make a list of all of the great advice I get from the sobersvere so I can help someone else.
(that is going to be a very long list!)
And one of my "fun" things to do with this blog is to see the countries where people that read my blog are from. (Don't worry, there are no names, cities, etc. You are anonymous!) Someone read my blog from a country that I never even heard of! I had to get out the old globe!(I really just googled it and learned a lot about a country that I've never heard of! Watch out Jeopardy!)
I am happy today. Very happy. Pink Cloud happy.
Thank you for coming to my Day 100 blog party!
Sober at 53