May 1, 2016
Yesterday I ran in a local race with a group of about 20 friends...some besties, some acquatainces. It was a a tutu race for a local charity. 1000 people in tutu's..over our running clothes of course! It was on the ocean, only 2.2 miles, cool temperature (a little too cool!). Most of our group of 20 walked the course. One of my girlfriends and I ran it.
Why did I run it? Not because I am any kind of great runner. I ran it because the race ended at a beer garden and I wanted to get the hell out of there as fast as I could without any questions! I also didn't carpool with any of our group because I wanted to have my own car so I could leave. I told my group that I would be leaving afterwards because I had something to do for my daughter. Which was the truth, but I honestly could've stayed. I just didn't want to go to the beer garden. First off, beer was not my drink, but in a huge party atmosphere I know it didn't matter what the booze was! The first beer was free too! It was also 10 am (you would be surprised how many people can drink a beer at that time!..I would've too!)
I had it all well planned out...no questions asked. I was proud of myself for planning ahead. BUT...when I saw all of the pictures of the beer garden on Facebook that my friends posted, I felt so left out. I was so sad and angry at myself at the same time! I seem to keep coming back to asking myself "how the hell did I let myself get here that I can't drink!!!" Am I going to have to avoid these kinds of events FOREVER? I literally missed having a fun experience with my girlfriends. I missed being part of that memory that they will always share and I won't. They all had such a good time....and they only each had 1 beer. I would've had WAY more. I feel so left out...
Hoping you don't feel left out because you are sober!
Sober at 53