Day 3
Hello!
Today is the day before Lent. I am going to give up wine for the 40 days of Lent. Well, today is my 3rd day AF. But, it is the last day I can drink before giving it up for Lent tomorrow. What should I do? I really can have some, because I am going to give it up for 40 days starting tomorrow! I just did 2 full days AF, surely I can have wine tonight! Why deprive myself? I know I can do just fine for 40 days, I just did 2 feeling fine (that's a rational thought, huh?) The alcohol "ping pong" goes back and forth in my head ALL DAY LONG! What should I do???? I know…I will read the book I just downloaded "I DON"T DRINK." So, that's what I did…I read…ALL DAY LONG! (See how I changed in my head my "ALL DAY LONG?") It really empowered me. That's right, I felt empowered! Opposite of self-loathing! I loved that feeling. I haven't felt empowered in a very long time. I could take control of my drinking. I can call the shots. It won't be easy…that I know. So, I read all day into the evening. I didn't have any wine! I wanted to celebrate! (with wine of course!)
Go me! I am so proud of myself!
Wishing that you find what empowers you!
Love,
Sober at 53
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